Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Why Write?

I write because I am socially inept.

Or maybe I choose to be a loner.

Of course, it could be that I am just your run of the mill narcissist who thinks they have something brilliant to say, that everyone must read.

Sometimes it is therapy.

Other times, writing reminds me why I need therapy.

Writing reflects my true colors, while meeting me in person highlights my insecurities.

When I write I am able to complete my thoughts around something…at least for the time being…

While I write, I try to notice the minute details of things I may never have noticed if I wasn’t trying to describe it to someone with mere words on a page.

The beauty of life is reflected back to me, as I put my thoughts on paper…ahem…computer screen, because I am learning to look at every moment in search of gems worth passing on to others. And there are a surprising number of diamonds in a life that may seem, on the outside, rather mundane.

Writing in some ways takes a load off of my shoulders, while I can’t explain why or which topics succeed, there is a sigh of relief when I have released the burden I wasn’t even aware of, free.

The written word has long allowed us to see that not a one of us is alone, even if sometimes we feel like we are.

My fingers dancing across the black keyboard of my laptop have allowed the permanent laryngitis in my throat to slowly loosen; my voice is heard even if it’s not with ears.

Why write?

Because it is all there is for me to do.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Refusing to hide behind anonymity

I've been blogging/writing for years, starting with our family blog that began when I was pregnant with my first son over four years ago. From the beginning, I've always been an honest writer. I regularly wrote about my fears as a new mom, the horrible childhood I had growing up, the challenges I faced in dealing with my in-laws, and my evolution as a woman during motherhood. Nothing was off limits to me and I put it all out there for the world to read (tastefully, of course).

I continued that same controversial honesty on my personal training blog that I started, writing about fitness myths, useless supplements and time-wasting exercises. It was a natural progression when I began my restaurant review blog, keeping up the honesty about the quality of food we were being served, even if declaring the Best Breakfast Spot in town to be mediocre was blasphemous.

One thing I've noticed with all of my blogs is that some people don't like to hear the truth, whatever it may be. I've had my fair share of hate mail from my honest writing. After writing about my traumatic childhood and the issues with my in-laws, I had to install comment moderation on my family blog due to the hate mail calling me names and ripping my experiences apart. It got ugly from people who stood behind the title "Anonymous".

I kept comment moderation on my personal training blog, learning my lesson from my family blog. It was a good call when I started receiving hate mail from people after writing about my dislike for the time-wasting abductor/adductor machines in the gym (seriously!). I did not install comment moderation on my restaurant review blog and I've already had one restaurant owner send an e-newsletter to their customer base telling them to comment on my blog after my honest and less-than-glowing review of the salty sandwich I ate there. I've also had a name-calling heckler, leaving me insulting comments on a review that I wrote because they didn't share the same opinion.

I've learned to let these anonymous comments roll off my back (sort of), even if it took me years to do so. I've never understood why someone would hide behind their computer screen to tear someone apart, someone they've never met and only know from their writing. I've never been motivated to leave nasty remarks on someone elses writing, even if I didn't agree with it. What is it about truth and honesty in my own life that makes others so uncomfortable? Is it touching on a nerve? Does the truth hurt, no matter where it comes from and no matter who it's for?

Despite the hate mail I've received, I know I can never keep the truth from myself and my readers. It's a core issue for me after living many years reeling from the aftermath of the dishonesty of others. Being less honest, only telling half of the story, isn't how I roll. This is my life, as imperfect as it is. Pretending otherwise doesn't change it. I may get hate mail, I may lose friends or readers from it, but at least I won't lose myself.

Kristin Mastre

Monday, January 11, 2010

Happy Anniversary

I am pleased to announce the one-year anniversary of this blog. The reason why I can clearly remember the date is that the first meeting was at The Bean Cycle on January 8th, my mother’s Birthday. At the time I felt it was symbolic to have the meeting on her Birthday. She also was a writer. Although never published, I have a folder of some of her essays. One of my favorites is “Buttons” (see below). I love how it is a reflection of a time past as well as what binds the generations together. Just like the buttons, my mom and I share a love of writing.

Looking back to that first meeting I was terrified. My heart was pounding and my armpits were sweating. I feared that no one would show up or that I would have nothing to say or that no one would want to join my group. Em showed up – adorable, excited, full of energy and talk, ready to trust and jump in. Another woman showed up as well, a poet with long wild hair who was still nursing a baby. I allowed myself to imagine that this might have been a step towards a belonging. Finding some women in town who I could relate to.

Our writers have had a busy year. We have a food blogger (Feasting Fort Collins), an aspiring children’s book author, bloggers, and a poet. I feel like as a group we are now getting into a good groove. People are getting excited about the blog and there are many essays to read and critique.

This year I am hoping to see more of our work getting published. If anyone else is reading this and you are interested in contributing to our blog or have writing assignments, please let us know.

Happy Writing!

Buttons
Leonie W. Aron
Saturday, we talked about buttons. “Do you have any of those pearl baby buttons? Save them,” she said. “They’re impossible to get, nowadays.” She was asking about my daughter. She was planning to knit the coming home sweater for a baby that had yet to be conceived. I have all the buttons, Aunt Gerry. Buttons form my mother’s dress the day she got married. Not the kind of buttons that you would expect. Navy buttons from a green wool dress. In 1934, my parents eloped to far-off White Plains, to be married by a Judge. They had been introduced at a little lunch, cooked up by Aunt Gerry. Once Aunt Gerry took you into her heart, that’s where you remained forever.

Aunt Gerry taught herself to sew. She even took tailoring courses. She made me a hound’s tooth check suit with a pleated skirt. I have the buttons. She made me pajamas with red buttons like raspberries. I have the buttons. She knitted sweaters, made dresses, made handkerchiefs with drawn work. She made beaded bags and crocheted hats, Afghans with roses, and shawls for romantic summer nights. She even made beautiful aprons, some of which I still have. The aprons have buttons too.

In my house, no one left for work or school with a loose or missing button. Grandma sewed the buttons on men’s shirts and kid’s coats. When a new winter coat was purchased, buttons were resewn before they were ever worn, just to make sure. Crystal buttons would be sewn on a blouse to make it more festive. When shopping for clothes my mother would say, “That’s a good dress just look at the buttons.” We never carried safety pins, buttons never fell off.

When Grandma died I was old enough to sew on my own buttons. I hate to sew buttons, though I’ve sewn enough of them. Buttons moved make waists smaller, and years later, looser. Buttons mysteriously popped off baby’s corduroys, boy’s shirts and hand smocked dresses, were livingly replaced. I remember searching through an old dusty button store to t to find sets of toggles for matching kid’s coats. They must have hated those loden jackets, always destroying the buttons. I once had a coat with frogs, I closed them gently.

Brass blazer buttons large and small, some with eagles, buttons with anchors, even buttons with American flags, from a more patriotic era, remain in my collection. Rhinestone buttons, buttons set like garnets or emeralds. Jet buttons both faceted and plain, tear drop mother-of-pearls, I treasure them all. I have a set of buttons that are little brass bells and satin buttons in white, pink, red, and black. “If you are going to get rid of that, save the buttons,” my mother would say. Now every button holds a memory.

When my mother died, all my daughter wanted was the buttons. To this day she doesn’t know why and laughs at herself. She took boxes of them. Aunt Gerry died on Monday. I went looking for the mother of pearl baby buttons. Don’t worry, Aunt Gerry, I have enough for the next generation.